my heart pounds with 200 km/h and i feel like crying. it hurts. i don't have to talk with him. i'd better shut up. but i can't shut up 'cause i need to feel nearer and then i go say something stupid and spoil it all. and the silence fell just like a stone.

i need to go sleep. i don't want to. why is it so quiet ?

i hope i'll get a better weekend than these two days have been. beth hart on godset with daniel tomorrow evening and efterklang + skyphone on pitstop saturday with my cousin. i have to smile.