i saw somewhere something about a bureau in germany which breakes up for people. and believe it or not, there's also a bureau which covers adultery. it makes me angry....'cause there's by now no limits to how selfish people can be!! well...yes we have to be selfish in one way or another to get along here in this awful world. but there must be limits....especially when it comes to hurt other people! people you were supposed to respect and care about. respect particularly has a lot to say in situations like that. respect is important. no matter how you turn over a matter in you mind.

egoism can destroy a lot. especially when someone you care about wear blinkers and almost doesn't even bother look your way in any way. that's hard. see....most people would either have given up at this point or you will hear the sentence "forget her/him!" a thousand times. but...it's really hard when you just try to believe in the best in people. maybe someone asks me by now "why even bother?" or "how can you even see something good in this person at all?". well...see, maybe i wouldn't have bothered caring about this person in the first place if the person in question hadn't been so obliging in the start. i know there's a good thing in most people one way or another. you may call me naive and stupid...i just try to do my best. though it hurts.

this has been an awful day. the weather has been suiting my mood just perfect. i should never have gotten out of bed though...