i'm very bitter these days. can't really define why i react to things the way i do. yesterday for example, i was just about to sit down and cry when i got all stressed out closing down the caf� way to early, with only johan helping me out. i feel somehow like i'm confined...on the same time some of the ghost's from last year are still haunting me...and i don't know if it's best to try and ignore them or to face them...somehow i think i'm hoping that they will disappear when i move together with siff. hmm.