a wise man once told me not to go and make friendships with the musicians i worked with....yesterday i was faced with why that is a good advice. cause even friendships can turn out ugly and the problem is that you cannot avoid each other afterwards because you work within the same industry and have lots of mutual acquaintances, so you are constantly reminded of something painful and all the questions about why it turned out as it did.

it's paradoxical because you during your life meet so many people who become a part of your life and you a part of their life. but sometimes you will be deselected or you will deselect someone...it happens very rarely..but when it happens it pulls the rug from under you.

anyways...i'm okay and won't be using anymore energy on it. the wise man was right, but that won't stop me from becoming friends with whomever i want. like i said, it's a part of life and it's a part of what shapes you.