he gave the whole thing a deathblow today. when he said it. but never gave it. i've stopped believing that this could get any better. soon there'll be nothing left. and we will be strangers once again. just like 4 years ago. it hurts. but it's a fact. he has given it all up. he won't react anymore. no matter how many times we tell him how great he is. i think he has problems. but he don't want to talk.

maybe i'm wrong. and maybe i can do something when i se him. but untill then. this is dead.