thought that maybe we'd fall in love over the phone
thought that maybe I'd really love being alone
everybody but heaven knows how I was wrong
oh Lord, what have I done to myself?
what have I done to myself?
in this vicious world
such a vicious world
there isn't anything you can do
in this vicious world
soaking on the ice, makin' eyes all by myself
didn't realize you were so top of the shelf
just you wait and see when you turn, turn 23
oh Lord, what have I done to myself?
what have I done to myself?
in this vicious world
such a vicious world
there isn't anything you can do
in this vicious world
such a vicious world
there isn't anything you can do
in this vicious world
there isn't anything you can do
in this vicious world

- rufus wainwright

oh boy....now i know what he means when he says that song is to neglected. that song couldn't describe my situation at the moment better.

stereo studio obviously don't want to have anything to do with me. i thought my job interview went well. at least better than last year. but no way. and i didn't even get the chance to go to the second job interview. so now i have my whole life infront of me...and i don't know what to do with it. sad huh?! and i'm sick and tired of my parents preaching about what to do with my life. they are in such a hurry.and i don't want to hurry 'cause then it will end in bad choices.

why oh why do you always draw things out?! i don't wanna wait around anymore. what are you afraid of ?