i didn't feel the need to face the world today either. but i had to. it's luna's birthday so i had to go get her a gift downtown. of course i met people and had to act happy. i met line, kristian and simone. said hi to louise and lotte. it went ok. but didn't make me feel better. afterwards i had to go straight to the birthday. it was okay. 'cause there were a lot more guests than i'd expected. so the attention didn't go to me all the time. i didn't feel like socialising and act all happy. even when they laughed at this stupid balloon i couldn't even smile. now i'm tired. didn't get too much sleep last night. thoughts thoughts thoughts.