i've been reading for my lectures most of the day. quite boring. but things has to be done. i'm glad i didn't stay out last night. pessimism somehow paramounted my mood. i even hated the looks i got from the guys everytime i moved around at knud's or when i entered pitstop. it's like my come downs hits me like a bolt from the blue these days. i don't know what to do anymore. i miss too much. i wish it was july the 2nd all over again...