i saw marlene today. for the first time in weeks. it was really lovely seeing her again...talking with her again without any stupid misunderstandings and such. she also told me that she was feeling more positive vibes surrounding me. which is a good sign...right?! i've also felt more positive lately. not felt like crying since last thursday. wow. that's almost a whole week...! that must be the first time i feel like that in months!

right now i'm just taking one day at a time. trying not to have too many plans. today marlene and i went for a loooong walk. we went downtown. to the library where i found a lot of cool music. then we walked around in the windy and rainy weather before we went home again. totally soaked. then we baked chocolate scones and drank hot chocolatemilk. mmmm. afterwards she went home..and here i am. in my couch soon to fall asleep.