i'm in a strange mood these days. mostly i'm fine but i can sort of feel this kind of sadness lurking somewhere. or maybe it's not a sadness...maybe it's a fear of losing something/someone. i don't know. but it's kind of scary. i try to keep up my mood though because i'm going away for five days soon and i would hate to feel down on that trip.

things i've done today to keep up my good spirit is to stay in my apartment just as i felt like. although i had to go to the library and i thought i had a half deal with marlene...but haven't heard anything from her, so figured out i was better off . so i've been doing some laundry and been studying some kristiania-bohemia and dandy stuff (no...not bubble gum) most of the day. which have turned out to be quite exciting. have you ever read the 9 commandments of the bohemian ?! did you know that amongst others, edvard munch was a part of this wave ?!

well...he was, and that painting is one of the results in his beliefs in this way of living. i could probably tell you more...but i'm not sure how interested you'd be anyway. i'm now looking even more forward to this trip. it's gonna be great. just wish i could assemble myself to get packed and read the final stuff...

oh.. and i'm done having top friends at my myspace profile. i keep getting disappointed because of others top friends lists...and considered rearranging mine in a drastic way so no one could recognize it. but in order not to disappoint others as much as i've been disappointed, i've deleted it completely the first time around. maybe it will be up again someday...but i'm warning you, it'll never be the same. i'm tired of being disappointed and left behind! i should really consider realizing my thoughts about quitting the internet completely...it brings nothing but tears all the time.