...this is not happening....

okay...i find it really hard being me at the moment. actually i'd like it better being me 3 years ago, about 30 kg heavier...then i wouldn't have tears in my eyes now... i mean it! i know it's easy to just give up...but i'm so sick and tired of these wicked games.

i have figured out why i don't go in town anymore....it's to spare me for these tears and misunderstandings...i really can't stand it anymore...

he was right...but still too late...