it's just that there's so many things going on inside my head at the moment, so i can't seem to focus on anything at the moment...i'm all blank. and then there's the heat. i can't seem to concentrate in the heat...and i'm supposed to get some studying done for my examination in august...it gives me the headache. i'm having the best intentions to my examination assignments...i just can't seem to find the peace to focus on them. so it's not because i'm lazy...

i did something very important today...maybe it's the start on a new chapter. the old chapter has lasted for 2 years now..and it's time to get on with life (it has been for a loooong time though)...i feel i'm ready now. but the chapter didn't get the right ending...unfortunately. and now i'm having a headache. so i'm all blank, trying to get on with life anyways...hmm. i'm slightly depressed for the first time in a while... i want some rain.