today i talked with louise from my old class back in primary school. she asked me if i still talked with charlotte and then i had to tell her the hole story. i got upset just by telling the story. feeling almost the same way as i did that evening. i can't believe i'm not over that yet. but now i know why i don't like (or it's a good thing for them....but i'm afraid) when the people close to me get boy-/girlfriends - 'cause what if they do the same as charlotte?! then i'll end up all alone because i tell the truth and care about them though they can't see it?! scary.