if there's one thing i really don't get...then it's how you become an expert in backgammon?! i mean...i could easily beat an expert anytime it should be. it isn't really about how clever you are. it depent on luck i believe. the world is really weird.

another thing is that i haven't been hungry all day long. and i couldn't fall a sleep last night no matter what i did. i just lay there thinking. i had for once turned off my computer early so i could get a good nights sleep, but no matter what i was awake for at least three hours. grrr. the thing today not really being hungry was even more weird. i've tried to eat something anyway because i need to have something, right?! but it won't go down my throat. it's stupid.

i'm having a paranoia these days. i don't know why. but on one side there's so many things i could do but instead i'm just runing around in the house, driving myself crazy and doing nothing. argh!

the word of this month:

"when you make your peace with authority, you become an authority" - jim morrison