everything drives me crazy today. i'm so happy and i want everything to happen NOW! he drives me crazy...he doesn't even know it yet. or do he?! it doesn't really matter. i couldn't fall asleep last night. just lay there thinking. oh well. stupid naive thoughts. i guess the same thing will happen tonight. the great news that i got today. i'm all excited. it's once in a lifetime chance, and i have to do it, no matter how poor i am. i think my mum will kick me out of the house if i do this. she don't understand how huge this thing is.